Since approaching 50, I have faced challenges in accepting and embracing the changes my body has been going through. The dreaded perimenopause stage has brought weight gain, mood swings, dry skin, brittle hair, and nails – you name it, I’ve experienced it. Thankfully, HRT has saved the day, along with massive changes in my lifestyle habits to support these hormone changes.
When Grier Nielson announced her Flock50 project, which aimed to photograph 50 women in their 50s to change the narrative around women in this age group being the least photographed demographic, I was initially hesitant. I sat on the fence for a while, thinking about whether this was something I wanted to do.
The project was all about celebrating and embracing the changes this stage of life brings, seeing the beauty in ourselves, and being proud to be seen. I decided to say “yes” because I have struggled with body confidence and I am on a journey of rediscovering myself.
I’ve always had a bit of a negative relationship with my legs, but during the shoot, we put them out there in all their glory and celebrated them big time! It felt incredible to let go of those old insecurities and shine in my own skin.
Most importantly, I want to be a good example to my teenage daughter, Aiva, and show her how to love the skin she’s in. It’s so important for me to model self-love and acceptance, and today was a big step towards that.
Since the photo shoot, my photo has appeared in the Flock50 Exhibition as part of SALA. Seeing all the photos on display was empowering and beautiful, and I was so happy to be amongst many friends who also embraced being seen.
A huge thank you to Grier Neilson of Bohemian Ekko Creative for making me feel so comfortable and beautiful throughout the shoot. Celebrating with a collection of the photos displayed in a stunning exhibition and book was the perfect culmination of this journey. You’re the only person who could have guided me through this experience with such grace and support. Here’s to loving ourselves just as we are!
In this image, I hold a mirror – a symbol of my journey towards self-love and rediscovery. Through its reflection, I confront the parts of myself that were lost in the endless pursuit of external validation, chasing goals, and pleasing others. My legs, boldly exposed against the wall, tell a story of the tumultuous relationship I’ve always had with them. I am now transforming this relationship into one of appreciation and kindness. I honor the paths my legs have taken me on and celebrate their strength. I will find beauty in every step of my ongoing journey.
Tammy Edwards
